so long... farewell... for now...

I'm really busy with school. Suppose to have 3 project presentations this week. But one is postponed to next Monday. Just finshed one today also. But these group projects have essays to write also. SOOOooo much work to do! Also 2 term papers are due next week. One is completed for now though. And have another term paper due the following week. That's how busy I'm gonna be.

Thank God anniversary is over. Now Alpha weekend away. Busy busy busy.So... Don't miss me. Do tag me if you do. Haha...

One thing I want to thank God for. I know why He took that tuition job away. Otherwise I would have died during these 2 weeks. Haha...

"I can do ALL things 'thru Christ who strengthens me!" (Phil 4:13)

... want to be salty...

Want to be a salty Christian! Realised that I've not been one. Especially in school. School is where God put me at and that's my calling for now......

TIME to A.R.I.S.E!!!!!

I read an on-line 'QT' thing just now and this struck me:
"Salt gives food flavor and brings out the best, while at the same time it serves as a preservative."

Realised that I've not been of any flavour or worse still, a stench to some. Sorry Father... How can Christ's love penetrate through if one's flavour cannot be seen? We will just be like the rest.

It's NOT enough by being Christ-like on sats, suns and times spent with the cell and church people. Those salts you take don't change flavour daily. Do they? Haha... So we should not too..

God's speaking.. Are you hearing too?
Are you a salty Christian today?

"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men." Matthew 5:13

INTERESTING discovery..

I made an interesting discovery today. Out of 5 modules, I have 4 modules which are having open book exams. Can you believe it? Am I fortunate or what? Haha.. But open book exams need brain. Hmmmmm....

God, just wanna love You with all I am.

monster or angel??

My brother, my brother.. Angel or monster??

Just yesterday, I was real pissed off with my brother. Was rushing to leave house by 1030 so that I can make it for a 12pm lecture. So first thing I do when I woke up is to type out the blank data sheet to fill in for my chem lab later in the afternoon. All was well until halfway, when I typed english letter, japanese fonts came out. I was frustrated. I calmed myself down. Tried to solve the problem. It failed. Btw, I'm a computer idiot and computer and me are never friends?

I went to my brother's room. Told him 'politely' the situation I was in. He opened his eyes. And close it almost immediate. I was FURIOUS. I smacked him on his thigh hoping he will wake. NOPE. To no avail. I threw pillows at him. To no avail. I smacked him 1 last time and left the room on fire.

But after awhile, I sort my thoughts and thought that I should not have done what I'd done. How can God's love penetrate through if I'm so... bad? Haha... I apologised to him for hitting him but not apologising for getting angry at him. I'm not at fault for the transformation of normal english letters into foreign language!

This morning surprise surprise! My brother came up to me and said he bought breakfast for me. Awww... Isn't that sweeet? This is the 2nd or 3rd time in my life that he bought breakfast for me on his own initiative? BUT... Ya.. There always comes a big BUT... BUT..... My mum ate my breakfast. O well.. It doesn't matter. It's the thoughts that counts.. :)

So what do you think? Angel or monster?

Brother, God loves you. :)

God is an AmaZing God!

Just yesterday, Zec and I were just talking about how our cell lacks in prayer. Prayer should in fact be one of our pillars in the cell. Agree. Then we were like saying we need a Prayer i/c (coordinator) in cell. Then immediately, Zec looks at me.

NOOOooo! I did that for the past.... Dunno how many years when I was in my youth group. It's not that I don't like to pray or what. It's just not my area.

So in the end, we decided to ask the cell to nominate the next time we meet.

+The End +

NOT so soon... Just now, when I was on-line, I spoke to a dearly-missed brother on MSN. He mentioned out of the blues that he wants to organise prayer meeting for our cell. My jaws dropped. I didn't even mention anything about cell. Let alone prayer. I asked him whether he would like to be the prayer i/c. He replied that "It's his pleasure!". Woa... God's amazing isn't it. He didn't call a person in Singapore but someone currently in the Australia continent. Haha.. This person is none other than Matthew Chee (yay!).

Btw, i'm suppose to disseminate this. Attention to all guys from starSfish, would you all be interested to attend prayer meetings on friday evenings? Matt say he hv his own reason just to organise for guys. Yepz... Girls.. Don't feel left out. If they have theirs, let's have our own too. Haha... :p

Lord, one thing I ask of You...

Wanted to post this yesterday. tried posting twice in the morn. But dunno why whenever I click 'Publish Post', *poof* and I'm diconnected from my wireless internet in school. It was SO SO irritating....

Lord, one thing I ask of You..

Is to help me love You more.

To grow deeper in love with You.

To glorify You in all I do.

***

Lord, one thing I ask of You...

Is to listen to You.

To be sensitive to Your voice.

To be still and know that You are God.

***

Lord, one thing I ask of You...

Is to dwell in Your presence daily.

In Your sweet sweet presence.

In the shadow of Your wings.

***

Lord, one thing I ask of You...

Is to serve You all of my days.

To be a servant of Yours.

To be humble and true to You.

***

Lord, one thing I ask of You...

Is to be more Christ-like each day.

To die to self.

To have more of Jesus and less of self.

***

Lord, one thing I ask of You...

Is for You to be in me.

That's all I ask.

out of job

SIGH~ My tuition kid's mum sacked me. Sad. What else can one feel when one's out of job? But it's like so sudden kinda thing. Am I doing such a bad job? I dunno...

This gal.. Has not been passing her maths even before I took her. But after I took her.. 50% is still a far thing to attain. It's like I give her homework and she does not do.. What can I do? But for the past few months, wanted to increase the frequency of the tuition. But her mum thinks that it's too many lessons. I don't see how when her exams was round the corner. (Probably she finds it costly as she pays me per lesson)

Then just last sun, the girl face many problems as she did maths revision-maths paper 1 on Mon. (On weekends, it's difficult to catch hold of me. Also, busy weekends make me tired by sun afternoons) I was over at Zec's place and her mum called. She asked me whether I could go over to help the girl. My spirit was willing but my flesh was weak. I told her I was not home (btw the tuition girl is my neighbour). She hung up sounded quite irritated with me. In my mind I thought, What's wrong? I cannot be there for your girl 24/7. Moreover, whenever I ask the girl to do homework, she does not complete. She does not take the initiative to do extra work and then question her doubts. Isn't it abit late to help?

O well... Just on thurs the girl sent me the message meant for her mum regarding termination of tuition service. Well.. I was a bit pissed. Just tell me straight. Why beat around the bush?? Really dislike those who hide stuff from me.

I admit that for the past few months I had cancelled quite a few tuitions or change the days of the tuition. But it can't be help what... Programs are always changing weekly. O well... I should stop defending for myself and take responsibility for this part. Yupz.. I'm at fault.

Well... Whatever the case, all I hope is that the tuition girl and I can remain as friends even though my weekly allowance has decreased by 1/2. Haha... SIGH~

trouble's gone but problem's here!

Man.. I patiently waited and trouble's gone. Guess who's here? Sigh~

On the recent Sat, my maid finished her term. Yippee.. She's gone. Used to like her and befriend her till I found out she read my diary and that she was a Les? I kept my distance. How I found out? Confession: I read her diary too. Not on purpose la. Really. 'Cause out of a kind heart (really what) gave her my photo. She kept persistantly pester me for one. Then after that, my aunt said that I shouldn't (she didn't know I gave. I gave her a scenario kinda story and ask her opinion). She said they may use it for black magic and stuff. Though we are Christians, it's better to be safe than sorry. Hmmmm... What do you all think ah? I think it doesn't really matter 'cause the Spirit in us is GREATER than the spirit in the world right? Whatever the case, search her stuff and see what she did to it. Nothing (I think). But in the end, took it back from her to feel 'safe'.After the loooooooooooong wait, she's FINALLY gone!

However, to my dismay, when I return home from school today, another maid invaded into my territory. So far.... She's O...K... But the food taste like those probably you'll get to eat only in the village (O... how priviledge I am.. anyone want some too?) At first, I thought I can have my freedom in the kitchen at last and my OWN bedroom to MYSELF. SIGH~ Hoping that when I shift to my new house in Dec, she'll have her own personal space too. The storeroom? Kitchen? Toilet? Haha.. Whatever. I want my room to myself. Never have the chance since I was born la. And soon, gotta share room with my husband when I get married in a few years time...
Hmmmm...... Or maybe can rent a room in my neighbours house for my maid?? Hahaha...

Ok.. Just felt like complaining. Freedom of speech. Exercise only in my personal space. O well....

You are Rocko.
You are very determined. You are always willing to
give advice and help out a person in need but
sometimes you can be very stressed out. You
show incredible courage whether its facing
dangerous machinery like vacuum cleaners or
taking care of his brainless dog spunky.


Which cartoon describes your personality?
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Haha.. I must be T....H...I....S bored.

Sharon, START studying! Term papers deadline is gonna BARGE in soon if you still don't barge.

Dear God, grant me discipline, diligence.... and MORE discipline. Want to do my best for Your glory. Sorry for not living my call as a student. Take over Lord. Amen.

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

Friends come and go. But they are an important element in life. I guess 'cause we were created for relationship in the 1st place?

At times, friends are just SOOOooo good. Though you don't really know them but their nature is just so nice? Indeed it's God's blessings. Take for example, my past week. I had much difficulty with school this sem. Simply dislike it. I wonder why... Used to like it. Then have been M.I.A for awhile. But God just send good friends to rekindle the flame for studies. This week, we went to interview some guy in Little India. As he was late for the appointment, I just talked to my project group mates. Asked them for advice about my school work (they are my seniors). They just gave and encouraged me to read up and attend lecture etc. etc. I felt good. In a sense.... Went to buy textbook. Went library to do stuff.. Feel good that i'm back on track once again. :)

(Ok.. I wrote abt bad friends 5 mins ago. But erasing it. No point. O well.. Probably i'm a bad friend in the 1st place. Better remove the plank in my eye before removing the speck in others.)

I don't wanna care about anyone's opinion about me. My Father's opinion is all that matters. :) I love You, Abba Father.

O.. I really thank God. This week He is restoring my 'lost' joy in studying. Just feel excited about everything again. Even like what I mentioned above. He sent people to rekindle the passion. :D Lord, just wanna give my best to You. To You be the glory!